Letter From Chris Meza

Hello My Darling, 

Oh crap, you know it’s serious when that’s the opening line…

Patty, I love you endlessly. You have been in my heart so much as of late and it continually comes in the vision of our first acquaintance. We were at the Starz Film meeting and you walked in, head to toe in black, hoop earrings, hair pulled back, and you were a gorgeous force to be reckoned with… nothing has changed. And now I know the reason, as it’s been hitting my heart with a mandate of sorts “Hey Chris, it’s me Patty (or any of the number of names you let me call you).” 

I cannot explain the contentment the thought of our being family brings to my soul. You are one of the finest parts of this planet… you transcend any one body that can only physically move you from one place to another. And that’s why the universe needs you more, and I am a blessed man because I have had your spirit in my heart from the moment we said “hello.”

I know you’ve felt my struggles in your heart and that has been a driver in getting through challenges -- you have enough to worry about. And the thing is, I have had the same connection in my heart with you and that has played itself out in our relationship. I absolutely believe our spirits are deeply connected and there will never be a last time we touched, because you are forever my sister. 

Thing is, I have always felt like you didn’t want to see me at your worst. And in all honestly, I can’t bear the thought of the physical pain your beautiful mind has struggled with. The weight of the world is on your shoulders and that sweet, sweet, body of yours has proven that one small imperfect frame can knock the planet off its axis. Only she’s tired. 

You will always be the woman who reached out to say “Chris, I’ve had you in my heart, are you OK?”, the woman who changed a little shanty into a penthouse and laughed when the water ran dry while showering for your first date with Raymond, our mindless nights out with uncontrollable laughter, and my sister. 

I love you to infinity and you’re not going anywhere, you are part of me… all of us. Only, for selfish reasons I know I received but a slice of the best from you. 

X M